Find Your WAI with Lindsey Means

#101 - Sagittarius Season 2023: Growth, Healing, and Empress Empowerment

Find Your WAI with Lindsey Means Season 9 Episode 101

In this episode, host Lindsey takes us on a journey through Sagittarius season 2023, recounting her transformative adventures in growth, healing, and expansion. From exploring relationships and releasing old ties to ceremonial breakthroughs and self-empowerment, Lindsay weaves together personal stories and cosmic insights. Join us as we celebrate the freedom, abundance, and inner revelations that Sagittarius energy brings, and embrace the ups and downs that come with stepping into our highest selves.

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Hello gorgeous, welcome to the Find Your Way podcast where we are answering the question, who am I? Which is what way stands for. I'm your host, Lindsay Means, business alchemist and human design expert. I help women step into their royal empress birthright by embodying their human design, creating alchemy in their lives with ceremony and rituals, and cultivating sacred union within by harmonizing masculine and feminine energies. 

I'm so grateful that you're here. Now let's get started. Hello gorgeous, welcome to today's episode where I'm talking about Sagittarius season 2023. 

Get ready for this one because there is so much that happened in this season. So if you are new to this series, I have a process called the 4x4 method where every astro season I do a ceremony and I co-create my manifestations with plant medicine, intuitive insight, oracle cards, inner child, and it is so much fun. And part of how I remember things is writing on my calendar every single day.

So every day, pretty much every day something happens and Sagittarius season was one for the book. So the themes for the cycle, so every cycle has a theme. So we have Sagittarius and then I look at where Sagittarius is in my chart. 

So these are not necessarily the themes for every Sag season, but it was my themes for this season. So the themes were adventures, Jupiter vibes, expansion, optimism, luck, faith, belief, belief, self-identity, body action, appearance, courage, revelation, surprises, genius, abundance, opportunities, values, desire, attraction, artistic flavor, beauty, love, nature, quest, and student teacher. So sometime during this cycle, I looked up Dan, my ex, and I broke the spell. 

So I saw that he was married, maybe around that time I saw that he was having a baby and the thoughts about him were popping up less and less and I was experiencing relationship healing with Quan Yin dragon. And so there's always themes with the oracle cards that I pull and I pulled Quan Yin and she's all about karmic release and relationships. And it was a really beautiful thing because in the last season, I talked about having closure when I stay with my ex's friends who are mutual friends, but originally his friends, they've known each other since they were like little and it was really beautiful. 

And it's really, really nice to see the external results from the internal work because I was focusing so much on letting him go. I was like, I don't want to think about this man anymore. Like I want to let it go. 

I want to be free. And so slowly, but slowly, slowly, slowly, slowly, it started to happen. And, you know, healing sometimes takes time with, especially with relationships. 

So the season started with on Thanksgiving and I started a parasite cleanse and it was a lazy day. I had no motivation. I was kind of depressed and sad that I was alone for Thanksgiving. 

And that's why I started the cleanse. I was like, well, I'm not feasting. So I'm going to start a parasite cleanse. 

And then the next day, William, the man that popped up, uh, he invited me to friends giving and I had a line two moment. So I'm a six to manifesting generator with the sacral authority in human design. And the line two is the hermit. 

And the line two has to be like, oftentimes the line two will be called out to like engage with people. And a lot of times the line two is like, no, I just want to dance around naked in my house. I don't want to be around people right now.

And so I had a line two moment because I was like, no, I don't want to go. There's a bunch of people I don't know. And then I was like, you know what? I'm going to do it. 

And I'm so freaking glad that I went, it was so much fun. And the interesting thing is like this man invited me, but he didn't even notice me or say hi until about an hour after I arrived. And thank God I knew a girl, like I knew one person. 

So I started talking with her and I was just like, I'm not an extrovert. I'm an introvert. And there was tons of people at this party. 

It was in the middle of nowhere. And the hosts have a huge house and a huge like barn and there we had like food and I was on a parasite cleanse. So I could barely eat. 

And I was very proud of myself because I was sticking to the cleanse. Um, and I made friends. I sat with people that I don't know. 

Like I was embodied. I laughed. I felt really good. 

And then they had music and I was dancing and it was just a beautiful fucking night. And Barrett like said like two words to this man. Um, and when I left, I was like, okay, bye. 

Like, thanks for inviting me and gave him a hug. And then that was it. And I don't think I ever talked to him again after that. 

It was really weird. It was like, okay, universe. Like I know the reason that he popped up was to connect me with this group, because I'm still kind of connected with them. 

And so it was really cool. So the next day I did my Sagittarius season, um, ceremony and I had a huge masculine breakthrough. My heart was open, um, time to receive profound hoppy and cacao messages. 

It's time to open up because you'll never be hurt again is what came through and gate two and 33 were prominent, um, in my chart and gate two is the feminine and receiving and gate 33 is my conscious sun, which is basically my life purpose. And that's the medicine woman. And I feel like I was starting to step into those vibes and to step into that power. 

So that weekend was pretty chill. Um, a lot of times I'm like lazy and productive at the same time. Uh, and then the next day I went to a sweat lodge for the first time, five hours of sweating. 

It was profound. Like it was such a beautiful experience. And this was where I got my ayahuasca song. 

So the last couple of sits with ayahuasca, every, every weekend with ayahuasca, the first night is like the work, like we're diving deep, we're purging, we're clearing. And then the next night we start off maybe a little deep. And then by the middle of the night, we like get into celebration mode and sharing mode. 

So people will share songs and poems. And I was like, I want to sing, I want to sing, I want to sing, but I didn't have a song. And there was a song humble that we sang in the sweat lodge. 

And it was so much fun. And I was like, Oh my God, this is my song. This is my song. 

This is my song. And so I asked them what the lyrics were and I started practicing for my next day. And it was so fun. 

I highly recommend sweat lodges. It's like a really beautiful thing to do. So the next day I had some connection with this man Tyson. 

And this is a guy that I believe we connected on, on what's that? Tinder. I think we connected on Tinder when I lived in Oklahoma. Oh man, I can't even remember how long. 

I don't know if it was the first time I lived in Oklahoma. I think it was when I moved back. I don't freaking know, but we had been connected for years and years and years. 

And we like, it was really weird. He started reaching out to me and like talking to me and we had a really fun connection. Uh, and then I sang on Instagram and I was dancing and expressing love. 

And it was just like a beautiful day. And then the next day I went to go see Vandalux. This was the most magical liberating show ever. 

And I manifested it because I found him. I'm obsessed with the release radar. I'm a Spotify girl. 

Every Friday is my favorite day of the week because it's released radar. And I learned about new music and I learned about Vandalux and I was like, I want him to come to play. And I would look and see if he was coming and he wasn't. 

And then one day it just popped up. Vandalux is coming to town. And I was like, Holy shit. 

I feel like I manifested it. And I was so blissed out. It was so freaking magical. 

Um, and then that Friday, the people who hosted the, uh, Thanksgiving friendsgiving, they had a birthday party. And so I was so embodied. Like I danced for four hours straight. 

I was sexual and embodied and I had so much fun. I felt like I was in my own movie and I was really like riding the wave of life. And it was really, really fun. 

And then the next day I had a date. It was really fun. Didn't really feel a spark. 

Um, then the following day I went to, so there was a guy, Alan, who I connected with over the summer and it was incredible. Like we had so much fun and it went, he was the man that I'm so grateful for him because he introduced me to just being friends. First we met on Bumble. 

We went on a date. Um, there was definitely sexual polarity there, but he just kissed me on the cheek and I was like, okay, interesting. And then I think a couple of days later he came over to my house and we like made out and we all like, he like wanted to have sex. 

And I was like, I don't have sex, uh, until I'm in a committed relationship. And he told me that he hadn't had sex in like a year and he was worried that his like cock was broken. And he was like the next day when we woke up, he was like, thank you so much for saying no, because I would have been so upset if I had sex with you because I don't like to have sex that quickly, but I just got really excited because my dick was working. 

And I was like, cool. I was like, yeah, I can do that. And so we were just friends and I had never done that before. 

And I went through a lot of expansion with that process because my ego, my anxious detachment style came up and I was like, there was polarity there, but I was like, do you like me? Don't you like me? And he would like randomly make out with me every now and again. And it was just like an interesting experience, but I'm so grateful for it because going forward, like I want to be friends with someone before, get it before making out before getting sexual. And it was a beautiful thing that he taught me. 

And this man is probably a fearful avoidant. He's had a shitty life and he, he doesn't recognize his value. Like he doesn't recognize who he is. 

He doesn't love himself. And you know, it was, I knew we weren't, there was nothing there, but it was just really fun to like have polarity with someone. So anyways, he invited me like the day before he texted me and we hadn't seen each other in a while and he invited me to his birthday party. 

And so we went and it was super fun. And it was, uh, like he was really, really drunk. And this was the most wild experience that I've had, that I had ever had with someone. 

So he was really drunk and he had a work party that night and he's a barber and I'm a hairstylist. And so he was like, do you want to go to this party with me? And I was like, yeah, I would love that. And so when, as we were driving, he gave me the address to this place and I always choose the shortest route. 

And so we're driving and he's quiet and I'm quiet. I'm just listening to the music. And we're like five minutes away. 

And all of a sudden he starts screaming at me like, you're going the wrong way. You're going the wrong way. Turn around, like get off. 

Like I was about to get on the highway. And he like was like, no. And he was flipping the fuck out. 

And so I was like, okay, bro, like you direct me. And he was like, we need to go here. And I was like, okay. 

And he had his GPS on. And so we were driving and it was like, turn left. And he was like, turn left up here. 

And I was like, I can hear the GPS. And I was getting real pissy. And so we turn left and it's taking us in this weird fucking direction. 

And so finally I pull over and I'm like, can I see your maps? And he was like, yeah. And I look at his phone and his maps were set to a bicycle route. And we are on the other side of the river. 

I live in Austin, Texas. And we are on the other side of the river. So for the bicycle to cross a bicycle bridge, it was like two minutes away. 

And to go on the road, to go over the bridge over the highway, it was like five minutes away. And I was like, bro, I was like, you have it on bicycle. And he started cracking up laughing and I got pissed. 

And I was like, dude, I, you have, you have gone like you have taken this too far. Like you have disrespected me. I will not be screamed at.

I knew where we were going and I'm going to drop you off and I'm done. And then he got pissed. And then I, I like was like this. 

I have this address in my GPS. I'm going to go. And then I start driving and he starts screaming again. 

You're going the wrong way. You're going the wrong way. What the fuck are you doing? Why are you doing this? And so he was like, pull over.

And we were in the middle of a neighborhood and he pulled over and he got out and slammed the car and I drove away and I didn't even look in the rear view mirror. And I was just like, what in the actual fuck was that? And I had to calm my nervous system down. And I was like, holy fucking shit. 

And then I texted his friend because, Oh, I forgot about this. So his roommate, he pulled me over before we left. And he was like, Hey, Ellen is in a really bad place right now. 

Like he's having issues with his family. No one called him for his birthday. No one called him for the holidays. 

Like he's drunk. And if he like takes it too far, like feel free to leave him. Um, because he, he's really drunk right now and blah, blah, blah. 

And so I was very grateful that I got that insight because I was like, what in the actual fuck? And so then I, I can't remember if I like reached out to him the next day. I don't know. But, um, I, I essentially had a revelation. 

So this is going to go a little deep. So hang in there with me. I was like, okay, what happened there? Because I always look at things through the lens of human design. 

And there are, there is something called a connection chart. So when two people are together, they activate different parts of the chart. So both Alan and I have open solar plexus centers. 

And when we are together, we have open solar plexus centers. And so I'm like, that was so weird that we were getting so emotional together. And this happened one other time. 

So there was one other time months before that where we were hanging out or we were gonna, we were supposed to hang out. And then I was driving there or I was on my way there or something. And he was like, yeah, I'm in a really bad mood. 

Like, I don't want to ruin your day, blah, blah. And I was like, bro, I've, I'm already like 10 minutes away from your house. I've driven 30 minutes already. 

Like let's hang out. And so picked him up. We went to the store, he was getting alcohol from my, I probably shouldn't have been hanging out with this friend, but I was like, whatever. 

And then we get back to his, like, he was in a foul mood, foul. And we were like going through, he had a grocery shop or something and he was broke at the time. And so he's pissed off and, and blah, blah, blah. 

And then we get back to his house and he's just about to like lose his shit. And I was like, Hey, let me give you a hug. And I gave him a hug and I helped him co-regulate. 

And then I was like, I want you to do something for me. I want you to jump up and down and throw a tantrum. And so he jumped up and down, he screamed, he like shook his hand. 

He threw a fucking, threw, threw a fucking tantrum. And then I think I gave him another hug and we had an amazing night and so that was a scenario where he was moving through something and I like, I didn't get hijacked by his emotions. Well, fast forward to the birthday party night. 

I got fucking hijacked by the emotions. His nervous system was dysregulated. My nervous system was dysregulated.

There were emotions that were flowing through and I was amplifying them. And so he had emotions that were coming through probably from the past and he was highly emotional and it, and I, as an open solar plexus person, any open center takes in and amplifies the energy. So I was amplifying his emotions and then we were just going back and forth, back and forth. 

And this man has abandonment issues. I literally abandoned him, literally abandoned him on the road. And so what I felt happened is that his abandonment wound was so strong that that, that his body forced me to abandon him to prove that he will always get abandoned. 

And I tried to message him. I tried to reconcile and he had nothing to do with it. He was like, I don't know what the fuck you were doing. 

We were 15 minutes away. And basically the route that I took was longer in miles, but shorter in minutes. And I went the potentially the long way, but it was the, it was a, a way, but he thought that I was like hijacking him or kidnapping him or something like that. 

And then later on we talked and he was like, I think that you've casted a spell. Basically he insinuated in my mind that I was casting spells on him because he was like, ever since I met you, things haven't worked out with women and you and your Oracle cards and your magic. And I'm a God fearing man. 

And he was just going a little crazy. And so that relationship dissolved, but I learned a lot from it and I'm very grateful. And you know, like with, with all of that, let's see, I think I had a note here. 

Nope. I don't have a note, but it was a beautiful, beautiful experience that I'm very grateful for. So let's see what else happened. 

Oh, I had a think tank session with my friend Jules Taylor and Stephanie, and that was really, really fun. It was very rejuvenating. It was very magical. 

And then I went to go see this band CRI and it was so fun. Um, and then the following day I had a huge revelation, um, about a situation where I was in a situation where I was very frustrated and I'd been frustrated for probably a couple of months, but it was this underlying frustration. And when I finally pinpointed it, I was like, I got to fucking get rid of this. 

I got to get out of this situation. And so I had a very hard conversation. Um, but I'm very proud of myself for having it. 

And then let's see what else. I was a pretty chill weekend. I had a gathering with JJ healed the masculine, um, had a validation about shame and pleasure from Lumeria, expanding my capacity to receive. 

Um, this is a beautiful thing about sitting, having other mentors and having people work with you and like working with light language, uh, men like mentors and guides and expansion and, and energetics. It's a really beautiful thing. Um, and let's see. 

Dun dun dun. I'm looking at my notes right now. Oh, okay. 

So on the 12, 12 portal, I had an amazing session with JJ, lots of validation for whatever I was going through. And I had an Akashic record session. And the, in this session, she said that she saw me birthing a universe with my galactic guides and being sent to the ocean and waterfalls. 

And instantly I thought of Tyson and because he was living in Puerto Rico. And I literally told my friend bridge, I was like, he's going to invite, I know that Tyson's going to invite me to Puerto Rico. And within the hour he texted me and I was like, Holy fucking shit. 

I was literally just thinking about you. I need to go to the ocean. And he invited me to stay with him. 

And it was so fucking wild. Like it was the coolest manifestation story ever. And then the next day I had a powerful ceremony about divine union.

Let's see. What are the notes for this one? Dun dun dun. Focus on community. 

You've built it. It's time. It's been to one-sided. 

Connection and community. Lean into the values and Jupiter will expand. So I think with that one, I was realizing that sometimes I can get lost in my world. 

And I was really noticing the lack of community, that connection and community, and those are my core values. And sometimes we, this is why having values in your business is so important. And we have, I, in the Empress sanctuary in the Midas touch activation, we have the sacred soul blueprint. 

And this is a way to activate your mission movement values and create your best soulmate persona. And here's what I believe as a soulpreneur, you are the heart of your business. And it's really important to create your business based upon you. 

So I know I used to be lost with values and this, that the other thing. And so I created a way where you can use the power of journaling and chat GBT to come up with your missions and your movement and your best soulmate persona so that you know who you're speaking to and your values are your why your values are your anchor. And sometimes we slip away from them and, and we have to be called back into them. 

And so that was a beautiful thing. And so the next day was a powerful day of getting shit done. And this man, uh, Rob reemerged in my life. 

So story with him, probably a year ago. I don't know. I think I met him in 2020. 

We only had one coffee date and never, I think maybe, Oh, he came to my house one time and that's it. Saw the man two times in real life. And then we had an inter, like we had a texting communication back and forth and I like tried to see him and he would say he would come hang out with me and then he never would. 

And then I just kept going back. I kept getting sucked in. I don't know why. 

And he showed up and we ended up sexting and I was really tapping into sacred slut vibes and it was really, really fun. And I was just, I was kind of using the man to be honest. And I was like having so much fucking fun with it. 

But I was like, whatever, like this is sexy and there's nothing wrong with being sexual. There's nothing wrong with sacred sex. There's nothing wrong with like that energy, but that's in our society. 

And so that was really fun. The next day I went to go see Tepno, uh, who is an amazing artist. And then I also saw explosions in the sky and it was just so fucking magical.

Like I was dancing and, and I almost cried at explosions in the sky. I've loved them forever. And it was just such a beautiful experience. 

And it was in this like amphitheater type of place. And I saw myself on stage and I was like, someday I'm going to be on a stage like this with hundreds of thousands of people that are listening to me speak. And I just started crying. 

It was so powerful and beautiful. Uh, the next day I had a massage and, oh wait, no, that was the wrong day. The next day I saw explosions in the sky again because I ended up getting two tickets and I went to this polarity workshop, a sacred union workshop. 

And it was really, really fun. Um, I, I was really turned on by the energy at that, at that space. And then I went to go see explosions and it wasn't as good as the night before, but it was still really magical. 

And let's see. Oh, the next day I had a shoot with Camille, uh, my photographer. I'm going to link her in the show notes. 

Uh, she is amazing. If you live in the Austin area, definitely check her out. And this was my like Empress shoot with the red, with the orange dress. 

And, and it was very magical. We went to a beautiful place. I had very Royal vibes, Royal energy, and it was so much fun. 

Um, Ooh, the following day I had some nervous system awareness because my cat Ziggy escaped. Um, and let me see, I'm reading this. Um, so I can't remember exactly what happened with this, but I, I feel like when she escaped, I was just like, had a calm nervous system. 

I'm like, she's safe. She's protected call upon my guides. And I was very calm through the whole thing. 

And the first time she escaped, it was awful because she was gone for like 12 hours. And this time she came back pretty quick. And so it was nice to have that, that like knowing that I have improved with my nervous system and let's see here. 

I don't really know what these notes mean, but I had some ceremonies, priestess ceremonies. Oh, uh, Ooh, I went to this priestess ceremony at a pyramid for the winter solstice. That was so much fucking fun. 

This place, it's a pyramid outside of Austin and it was magical. It was a really, really beautiful activation. Um, and let's see.

Okay. I think they're best solstice ever session with Monica out of this world. So much healing validation. 

Oh yeah. Okay. So earlier the following weekend, I didn't look at all my notes for that weekend, but Tyson reached out to me and he was like, uh, I'm thinking about you, blah, blah, blah. 

And like, he shifted. And so it was very interesting because I always kind of felt like entitlement from him. Like I never felt like he saw me as an equal. 

I felt like he saw me, he was on a personal development journey. We had connected when I was still with my partner, Dan, and I always kind of felt this like elitist sort of vibe from him. And so he was shifting and it was really weird. 

And I was starting to get feelings of like, Oh, maybe there's something there with Tyson. And I'm going to leave you with a cliff cliffhanger because there was a lot that happened with that trip. Um, but we'll get to that I think in the next, uh, the next couple of seasons. 

But the moral of the story was Sagittarius season is really like having fun and allowing, like balancing the healing work with going out. Like I went out a lot in this season and normally I stay home. So I was doing a lot of being around people, going out, moving through the relationship stuff and like having a lot of healing experiences and ceremonies, but also having fun. 

And so I feel like in Sagittarius season, I was starting to get into this higher self. Lindsay, I was starting to get into Empress Lindsay. I was starting to like, be like, wow, like life is incredible. 

Life is beautiful. Life is magical. I was just coming off of the best seat, the best inflow month of season of my life and the best launch of my life and life. 

It started ramping up. And then as you'll see, things started going down a little bit and there's something called the upper limit problem. This was coined by Gay Hendricks and it's basically whenever you receive more money, love, or success in your life, your body has a tendency to self-sabotage. 

And this can look like worrying, stress, getting sick, having fights with people. And that started to happen because I was experiencing the life that I was calling in, but there was still a part of myself and my body that couldn't hold it. And so this is so important to pay attention to when you're on this journey. 

We want to pay attention to the self-sabotage because it's a bitch and it's not fun. So it was a beautiful season. So I am happy that I got to share it with you. 

I hope that you got something from this and I will see you next time. I am so grateful that you listened to this episode of the find your way podcast. If you want to connect on a deeper level, I would love to invite you to start your 14 day free trial of the Empress Sanctuary membership. 

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